Walking Away

Walking away from him as he sits in the hallway crying, was one of the hardest things I've ever had to do. When I was pregnant with the first boy, I was told that for the rest of my life I would never stop worrying about my children. Learning to crawl, walk, talk, read, kick a soccer ball,cuts, bruises,hurt feelings,and so on and so, the feelings are always up higher than one can imagine and lower than you can imagine. Walking away from him knowing he doesn't want to stay, but not knowing why is way beyond anything I ever want to endure again. I've tried everything to figure out what is causing this breakdown at the beginning of school each morning. At first he didn't want to read or do his schoolwork, then he just didn't want to go. He says no one is bothering him at school, he says he's bored, he says all kinds of things, but none seem to be the real answer.I've been in contact with his teacher and she says he's fine after we get over the hump.

Each day has gotten better, he's going in without crying, just a little whine. Nothing too bad. Why did it take him this long?

Walking away is hard, but the Lord knows I'll never walk too far.

In about oh say 5 years......

I'm thinking this will be standard operating procedure. They must have sat on the boat and jet ski for an hour just talking and cutting up. It's cute now, and I think the world of those girls, but in about oh say 5 years, I'm going to be saying... Back away from the girls.. slowly... and no one will get hurt!

Listening to God, by Evan

Sean, Evan and Lainey were discussing being baptized yesterday in the car. Sean tells Evan he's not ready, not sure what makes him the expert. Lainey tells him that he'll feel it in his heart. Sean says, "Yeah, Jesus told me I was ready and I could tell in my heart." Lainey agrees and Evan says well I can't ever hear him. So they tell him that he just has to listen. To which Evan replies, "Well, I can't ever hear, because the TV is always on."